As I pen down listening to the list of classical piano without attempting to understand the technicalities of music, leaving my refreshed thoughts to go on a stroll on the lazy Sunday morning. Yes if I am to rename Sunday as a Lazyday, I will happily do that, not that I raise up with the sun every other mornings except for Sundays. I was rolling on my bed giving a tough fight between my mind and body to get me out of it with no luck until 09:30 AM, my eyes were wide awake since 7:30 AM as the sun propagates through the screens of the window next to my bed. The previous night, I slept while listening to the narration of Kalki’s Ponniyin Selvan on YouTube, easily the only fiction series I have ever completed reading in any language so far when I was just starting to cultivate reading as a habit. The narration was bringing back the visuals in the mind and I decided to listen a little until my mind wins over my lazy body.
I made myself a cup of tea and had them along with Suji rusks. Yes I am a coffee person, and yet I have come in terms with myself to enjoy a nice cup of tea whenever I feel like. As I now understand, the unjustifiable allegiance is an unworthy cause. Going back to continue the series.
My periyappa is kind of too conventional and an orthodox practitioner of Hindu beliefs, he does not allow cooking non vegetarian food at home on the days that are termed auspicious. As I am a big fan of any meal that constitutes Fish, my cousins invited me for dinner last Thursday. If I had to call out one thing I miss the most when I am at my hometown, it is good fish – because in Chennai I will easily cook or take out fish meals every odd day of the week. My sister-in-law was telling me on a teasing tone, looks like Sharmili has gained weight, if only she stays here for few extra weeks she would end up gaining everything that she has lost over the past few years. This comment struck a bell, not that I was not noticing me gaining weight fast. There was a time I was happy when the scale was showing my current weight, but this time it alarmed me the same way I first got alerted that I should seriously work on my fitness. I made this as an excuse to boot myself up to take a return trip back to Chennai the next day evening. Yes, I reached Chennai this Saturday. Yes, it was lot of cleaning up to do in my room as i left home a couple of months ago in hurry leaving everything as is.
I wanted to get myself a short haircut as my long hair was getting unmanageable. So I booked myself a Saloon appointment at a new place out of accident. The hair cut and hair colour turned out to be a an accident as well. After all, it will grow back 🙂
As I was writing this post from my desk, my flatmate next door greeted me with a warm smile and gifted a cute little bottle of Ballantines, a 50 ml miniature Scotch that she brought for me from Chandigarh on her trip to visit her parents-in-law. What a cool gesture it is? This time it is ok that a girl friend related me with alcohol, not otherwise. I have thrown tantrums before when someone came up with a similar gesture.
So, the workcation is over and this marks the end of this series of blog posts, “Write like nobody is reading”. I wrote so much about my private and professional struggles that I had been going through and my choice of indulging in my personal life around my closest family has paved my path to recovery. Sometimes i was sounding ambiguous because, the intention of this series is to be true to my own feelings. What is more surprising is the lovely gestures of someone I vaguely know, but have inspired me in the past have followed this series and had brief interactions with me, Thank you. I just want that person to know there were times I wanted to be so fearless and confident on the stage in front of hundreds of young minds just like he stood cool and solid.
The trip has helped me to reinvent and reprioritise myself, there were several learnings and most important of which is there may be passing acquaintances who come into your life and leave you to give something profound – a life lesson(s) you can cherish. And my heart break and my temporary career set back is to tell me that I always have my family in my back, to tell me that I should not be too invested in anyone emotionally and to tell me at work there is always someone who can replace you, to tell me that you are irreplaceable for the people who value you and be grateful for all those blessings you have. To tell me, I am born to outshine and just keep working on myself.